An uplifting formula


formula 1Rhodiola  + raw chocolate + green tea + fresh air & natural light = Enhanced good feelings

Rhodiola is a remarkable herb that can fight depression, enhance immunity and strengthen the nervous system. It has been a treatment in traditional medicine for many centuries for anxiety and stress and found to be good for brain function, focus , clarity and an energy booster.  I find it instantly uplifts me when I start to feel down. You know those times when everything seems to be going wrong and your thoughts start thinking negatively, or sometimes you just feel low like a dark cloud is above your head. Well this is the time to take this formula, it lightens the darkness and lifts the lows. I sit down with a cup of green tea and take a couple of Rholdiola and eat some raw chocolate. I take a few deep breathes and relax for a moment and sometimes I go for a walk, thats all I need and the dark clouds over my head disperse as quickly as they came. Sometimes a dark cloud or a bad day can bring us down or sometimes medical problems or medications can have a negative effect. If we keep control of the dark times and the lows as soon as we feel it, it can help uplift us and focus on the good things in life. Its ok to feel emotion and have down days, it all part of our human experience, don’t feel bad that you’re not as up beat as normal, you are not a robot, but always take time out for yourself and most of all find your joy. If taking time out means a cup of tea and eating some raw chocolate then savour the moment, feeling content or love everyday is good for your health so have a self love moment every day.

Rhodiola is an amazing uplifting herb, it has been used in Scandanavia and Russia for centuries to combat  the stressful life style and to help cope with the harsh weather conditions and it also gives a strong resistance to high altitude sickness.  In Chinese medicine rhodiola is used to give strength and stamina and reduce stress.

So why is Rhodiola such a successful herb? Well in recent studies it has shown that it enhances dopamine and serotonin therefore activating the feel good chemicals in your brain.


Dopamine is a receptor found in the brain and central nervous system, it stimulates movement, control and motivation. The feelings that you experience when dopamine is high is that of satisfaction, accomplishment and feelings of clarity and happiness.

Seratonin – Serotonin is a neuro transmitter found in the gut, nervous system and brain. It plays a significant role in mood and behaviour, sleep patterns and appetite.  A lack of serotonin can lead to depression and aggression. Lots of serotonin in your blood makes you feel good, happy and content, it gives a feeling of security with no worries enhancing the feelings of  happiness and fulfilment.

Here are some extracts from the public medical journal  about serotonin;

For the last 4 decades, the question of how to manipulate the serotonergic system with drugs has been an important area of research in biological psychiatry, and this research has led to advances in the treatment of depression. Research on the association between various polymorphisms and depression supports the idea that serotonin plays a role, not only in the treatment of depression but also in susceptibility to depression and suicide”

Several studies have shown that higher serotonin levels in a persons blood enhances a good mood, whereas a lower serotonin levels instigated low, negative moods. The importance of feeling good has an enormous effect on our health and well being.

Dr Simon Young a professor of psychology writes this;

“Another reason for pursuing nonpharmacologic methods of increasing serotonin arises from the increasing recognition that happiness and well-being are important, both as factors protecting against mental and physical disorders and in their own right.12–14Conversely, negative moods are associated with negative outcomes. For example, the negative mood hostility is a risk factor for many disorders. For the sake of brevity, hostility is discussed here mainly in relation to one of the biggest sources of mortality, coronary heart disease (CHD). A meta-analysis of 45 studies demonstrated that hostility is a risk factor for CHD and for all-cause mortality.15 More recent research confirms this. Hostility is associated not only with the development of CHD but also with poorer survival in coronary artery disease (CAD) patients.16 Hostility may lead to decreased social support and social isolation,17 and low perceived social support is associated with greater mortality in those with CAD.18  The importance of feeling good has an enormous effect on our health and well being.”

Natural light and fresh air also stimulates serotonin and so does raw chocolate.

Research conducted by Professor Mary Engler at the University of California on chocolate;   “dark chocolate has several health benefits. This type of chocolate contains flavonols, which are naturally occurring chemicals that increase nitric oxide levels in the blood. This promotes better blood flow and relaxation of the arteries. In addition, the relaxed feeling that occurs after eating a piece of dark chocolate was found to occur because dark chocolate can raise serotonin levels in the brain. Dark chocolate also contains antioxidants, which neutralize free radicals and slow the destruction of cells.”

Chocolate contains a lot of feel good chemicals not only does it contain serotonin it also contains anadamide which is nick named the bliss molecule and dopamine. Raw chocolate holds a lot of benefits to people who suffer from stress or anxiety and it works wonders when eaten with green tea.

Green Tea:  Green tea is not only filled with an abundance of anti-oxidants it also is full of amino acids. One such amino acid is L-theanine. L-theanine supplements are nick named “chill pills” because it enhances relaxation and calm, so its perfect for anxiety. As it calms it is also good for high blood pressure and can help prevent heart disease. Its also very good for the brain and brings clarity and a clear head, so excellent for “brain fog”.

All these elements when brought together on a daily basis can promote health and wellbeing and a happier life. We are the masters of our bodies, our cells are forever reacting to our thoughts and emotions, so when we consciously send good, happy, loving signals to our body we can heal our lives.

There are more formulas for healing moods such as fear, worry , anxiety and stress. All of them will be available in my new book which is out soon ❤

I will also be running workshops.



Fall in love with yourself

201211-orig-deepak-chopra9-949x534When I started on my spiritual path 25 years ago, I studied for many years in several holistic therapies and taught meditation and I felt I knew everything. Despite of this knowledge and understanding I realise now I hadn’t fully awakened to the things I was teaching, my spiritual life and my everyday life were separate and I couldn’t figure out how to connect the two of them. My relationships never worked and I attracted abusive alcoholics and I couldn’t understand why. I spent 7 years away from men and concentrated on teaching and my spiritual life but as soon as a man came back into my life they would pull me away from my truth. In the end I gave up and went back to trying to fit in and I started drinking and smoking more and more, my relationship with an alcoholic had broken me and the constant emotional turmoil was putting a strain on me.

Then the dreaded diagnosis came 2 years ago. I cannot even begin to explain the emotions, the fear and the immense anxiety and depression a cancer diagnosis puts on a person. On the day I was diagnosed I gave up smoking, drinking, and sugar and became a vegan. I immediately went back into my true self with good nutrition and daily meditation. The journey I have been on has been truly enlightening. Finally I awakened to LOVE true immeasurable love, the true love of my life! That love came from me to myself and I discovered that love is not only personal it’s transpersonal. Love allows you to be who you are with no judgement. The judgement is what had stopped me from truly awakening, my own judgement of myself, my own inner voice of criticism and also the judgement of God, how I perceived God/the universe had an enormous effect on my consciousness.

I actually found my core wound and went deep within it and found that I hated myself. When I worked with a Qigong master I learnt the healing breath and breathed slowly into my tan tien, he called this central energy force “home” bringing my energy back into me, back home. I was fully aware of how I constantly escaped from myself, escaped from feelings by either comfort food, television, social media. All of this was an escape route away from me, instead of having all my energy in my head on worries and fear I started to put my energy back into my body. Then I sent love to all my organs. Deep breaths moved my rib cage back and forth and as I breathed slowly and deeply it felt like my inner organs were being massaged by this gentle rocking of the rib cage. I sent love to every part of my body and I realised I had been sending the energy of hate to my sexual organs because of the abuse I had learned to hate myself and think parts of my body were ugly.

Every cell in our body has a consciousness and listens to our thoughts, we are the God of our own bodies and when we have negative feelings towards ourselves, our bodies react and disease can start to take place. When we are over run with stress and negative emotions our bodies respond and go into full alert. Peace and love brings balance to our bodies, researchers are now finding different chemicals that are activated when we feel love or connected to ourselves, others and the world, these chemicals have a healing effect on our body. Our emotions and state of mind are vital for our health and wellbeing.

Take a moment every day to slow your breath and send love to all of your organs and every part of your body, this will really transform your life and will awaken you to love. There is also a transpersonal love that most of us call God/ the universe or life itself, I’ve felt this transpersonal love and when you truly open up to this you rest in Grace. I never knew what Grace meant until I felt the transpersonal love that is all around us and within us. Everyone is connected to this love and can experience it. All you have to do is slow your breath and feel love all around you, people will feel this in different ways. A lot of people feel it as a loved one who has passed, this is because everyone and everything is part of an eternal loving presence, and so your loved ones are part of you and will be with you for eternity. All spirit/God/the universe wants is for you to open up to this love and you can do this at any time, just quiet your mind and allow the energy to touch you.

Fall in love with yourself; feel loving energy around you and you will be able to lean back into the flow of Grace which will lead you to purpose and connection to yourself, others and the world.

Fall in love with your uniqueness that makes you you.


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Hope is the white feather that falls in front of your eyes

Hope is the truth amongst a thousand lies

Hope is the sun peeping out from the clouds

Hope is the one who stands out from the crowds

Hope is the sunlight on a rainy day

Hope are the words of love when theres nothing more to say

Hope is the dream that enlightens the depression

Hope is the broken heart that still loves without question

Hope is standing up when you were told you would fall

Hope is the survivor who has been through it all

Hope is the broken wing that can now fly high

Hope is knowing that this isn’t the last goodbye



Love You



I have been an alternative therapist for 25 years, teacher for 15 and a writer of self-development books for maybe 7 years. I know how important health and wellbeing is and for a while I was healthy, happy and successful. Until I met a man! It was evident that whenever I met a man my whole world would go upside down and I would lose myself.

For some reason, I picked the abusers and the addicts and my integrity and self-worth would always shrink into a tiny being that was unrecognisable. I always forgot who I was and I was never true to myself. After I left my recent abusive relationship 3 years ago, I had a lot of inner work to do! I had spent 7 years with a man who had put me down and his only goal in life was to drink as much as he could daily. I went from being a successful teacher to working part time in a pub. How could I have undervalued myself so much? I hated myself! I hated that my daughter was witness to this abuse and lived through it and because of this I felt immense guilt and deeply depressed. The only person to blame was me! I should not have allowed this man into our lives and I should of valued me and my daughters life more! For the years that followed I would cry every night full of guilt and self hatred. This was not healthy! Not only had I let a person put me down I was now hating myself and my body.

It took cancer to finally heal the wounds of self -hatred. My mum was diagnosed with breast cancer in August 2015 and I did everything I could to research natural cancer cures for my mum. It turned out her tumour was only 1cm and surgery and radiation saw the end of it. Half way through my mum’s radiation treatment on the 16th December 2015 I too got diagnosed with breast cancer which wasn’t the same as my mums. My tumour was 5cm and I had tumours in the armpit, chemotherapy was my only option. I stepped away from traditional medicine for 6 months. During this time, I did a lot of self -healing, I took a year out to heal me and love me! and I had to really face my fears and negativity and really forgive myself and heal the guilt I held within my heart. For the first 6 months of 2016 self hatred and fear overwhelmed me. I thought I was being punished for my bad decisions in life and every night I thought I was going to die. I stayed strong for my daughter who spent most of her time with friends, she totally distanced herself from me when I got diagnosed. We all deal with shocks and fear differently and her way to cope was to distance herself.

So, over time I sank into a routine of daily meditation and mindfulness, positive affirmations and a healthy lifestyle. I learnt that meditation and affirmations kept me positive and lifted me away from the fear. Despite of this it wasn’t until I was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer that I really started to love me!

On August 31st 2016 I was told my cancer had spread to the lymph and bone and was now terminal. I was now going to have injections every 3 weeks and a bone infusion and take a chemotherapy tablet called Tamoxifen. From that day, I made sure I had two or three healings a week. I would Reiki my food, my bed and house whenever possible. I would go for long walks on the beach and breathe loving energy into my body. I used the emotional freedom technique to free myself of old patterning and beliefs.

The true meaning of loving you, is honouring your body. This is the most important thing in the world. Without your body, you wouldn’t be here in the physical. We can totally transform our lives for the better by listening to our inner universe, Ive totally transformed my life by doing this. Our bodies are a miracle. When the ego mind takes over us it often tells you to do 20 or 30 things in the day and you will hear an inner voice of “got to do”. In fact, your mind sets you up for a fall every time because it can overload you with things to do and then you feel frustrated when you haven’t achieved the impossible task. Your body likes to rest, it likes to be pampered, it likes healthy food, it likes fresh air and it likes to be loved. Surprisingly it’s the opposite of what your mind is saying especially when addictions are involved. I often ended up in a pub instead of writing when my ego mind was at its strongest.

So, daily I slow my breath right down, by doing this I nourish my organs. I love my body more than I ever have done, I am in awe of its miraculous beauty. It works so efficiently without any input from me or my mind and it works for my best interest and keeps me alive! I now talk to my body and say “wise body I love you” and it feels good, it’s like my body responds with an inner hug, I can feel a warmth inside when my body responds to my love.

 I watched a wonderful video where the breath creates a movement within the body, I watched as the rib cage moved and rocked the liver gently back and forth like a gentle massage. Breath work is like an inner massage of all your organs, muscles and bones. Then as you breathe you send love to each organ. This really is the first step in healing yourself and connecting back to your body. I’m going to start teaching this to cancer patients because the method I have learned is so powerful and effective.  I want to help others through this fearful journey and really help them to experience loving themselves against all odds. How many times do we criticise our bodies or ignore and abuse it? Love you!

Thich nhat hanh (a Buddhist monk) talks about mindfulness within the body, he says we are like a tree, the trunk is our body and the branches are our mind. When there is a storm (depression) we need to bring our energies to our trunk of the tree and not the branches. He talks about bringing our energies to our tan tien which is a place of great energy in the centre of our being. It’s a place of warmth and really connecting back to you.

So now my body comes first! If my body is not up to it, I’m not doing it! Now I love every part of my body. I love me for all my flaws and I can see the beauty in each one of them! and by doing so I can also see the immense beauty in others, with acceptance and love and no judgement.

Love You!

Love yourself, you have the miraculous gift of life within you! You are a miracle!

Say to every part of your body “I love you” and see what happens 😉

Love You!




Releasing Emotions & Uplifting the Mind


Wednesday morning I was getting ready to meet my friend Sarah to talk about setting up a charity called Cancer Support. The postman was early today and I heard the letters fall to the floor. I checked the mail and I saw that one of them was from the hospital it contained my tumour marker results. As I opened the letter I went into shock and panic, my tumour markers had risen dramatically to a high level, I started to have a panic attack and hyperventilate. This could mean that my cancer had now spread to stage 4. I cancelled my friend and just sat and cried as I repeated “oh my God!”

I managed to calm down and decided to wait until the next day when I had an appointment with my oncologist and my cat scan results would show exactly what was going on. My friend Hazel who has supported me through this whole journey came with me. I sat in the chair waiting for the results, I was hoping for the best, but unfortunately he confirmed what the tumour markers had shown, I now had stage 4 cancer that had spread to the bone and lymph. A memory of a conversation I had with a friend echoed in my mind, she told me her mum had breast cancer and then said “once it had spread to the lymph that was it” My mind was now overloaded with panic and dark thoughts!

I spent two weeks in deep depression and I know all the self help gurus say to keep positive but the fear, the pain and the depression is immense and it needs to be released. Shouting and crying is what I did for 2 weeks. Finally I slowly  lifted myself out of it and started to look forward with more positivity. I was now going to receive regular hospital treatments every 3 weeks. I also decided to re-train and take charge of my mind with regular meditation, positive affirmations and mantras. I had seen a documentary on a man who was in an aeroplane accident and he had over-heard the doctors telling his family that  he would be paralysed from the neck down for the rest of his life, he couldn’t even swallow. This man thought “I still have my mind, and if I have my mind I can beat this.” So every minute of every day he concentrated on re-building himself. One year later he walked out of the hospital and was totally cured. His name is Morris E Goodman.

With the knowledge that people can heal through the power of thought alone has influenced me to try whatever I can. Firstly using the power of the mind and then communicating with my body by connecting to my cells consciousness. I am eating organic fresh food, receiving medical treatment and also raising money to receive immunotherapy. Oh yes! and balancing my chakras and hara line and working on an energetic level too!  I will be fighting this cancer on every level possible. Im living it and breathing it every day!

I have found a mind programming protocol that fits into my life; which consists of an I am mantra for 30 minutes in the morning and at night,  followed by a meditation. This I can do regularly.

I set myself a task of walking along the beach for an hour every day but it seems to only happen once a week at the moment so Im really trying to fit this into my life no matter what, fresh oxygen going into the body and the power of the breath is also very healing. I also created a vision board, I have done this for years and found that it works 50% of the time, so Im focusing on good health and also using a Buddhist mantra that welcomes blessings into my life.

For 3 days I forgot to do the “ I am” positive affirmations and I felt quite depressed. I have experienced more uplifting emotions and thoughts when I use positive affirmations and meditation on a daily basis.

Core beliefs: As a therapist I always loved finding and healing peoples core beliefs and when I started as a hypnotherapist and past life practitioner I watched many people change their lives through just one session. So Ive worked on core beliefs on myself but never really healed them 100% because Ive been too busy etc. Recently I used the emotional freedom technique and Ive healed 3 core beliefs that may have led to me having cancer! The first was “life is a battle” I believed that life was a struggle and I found I was always fighting with people in some way or another and couldn’t understand why, I was spiritual, I focused on love, so why did people battle with me? Because my core belief was “life is a battle”. This is now healed, it took 2 or 3 sessions of EFT and now I feel totally different about life! I love life and I love the beauty and magic of nature, I almost feel in awe of it! And now I cant even comprehend why or how I had that belief. I always said as a therapist and teacher once you have found your core belief you have healed 50% of it! You have to be true to yourself and let go of the ego to find it.

My second core belief was “I hate myself” and “everybody hates me” I also had this belief that God was judging me and didn’t like me much!?! I am not sure where these beliefs have stemmed from or when they started, Im guessing in childhood. Unfortunately this core belief has effected my life in huge ways! A lot of time was spent in abusive relationships and now I understood why! If I hated myself then my partners would reflect that self hate back to me! A German doctor said many cancers come from extreme emotion or shock, breast cancer can sometimes relate to abusive relationships in a persons life, or a shock within a relationship. This is just a theory but I wonder if people researched peoples emotional lives at the time of cancer diagnosis what would come up?

One positive thing that has come out of this cancer journey is that its helped me eliminated all these beliefs and value myself more in a compassionate way, I no longer have to prove myself or try and change myself to fit in. I can be true to myself and others. Ive used EFT and mirror work to help this healing process.

I can truly say from my heart that I have encountered enormous loving compassion this year. People are helping me and its …. well there are no words to describe peoples generosity and warmth of spirit its heart warming, its humbling, its miraculous!!!! Some people have so much love to give it makes me in awe of them!

So through my deepest fear and my darkest moments I have seen nothing but love and beauty. My perceptions have changed about life, the world, people and most of all of myself! And now Ive learnt to truly love me and give myself time and healing and not feel guilty about it!

So Im writing this message to you! Release emotions, let go of dark thoughts and heal your life and most of all love you  😉 Because you are loved more than you know 😉 AND LIFE IS A GIFT so make the most of it!

The Mind Project

I was diagnosed with cancer on the 16th December 2015 with a 50mm tumour in the breast and a tumour under the arm pit. I decided to go to the alternative route for healing and avoid chemotherapy. I started a vegan diet, taking turmeric every day, apricot seed kernals and keeping my body alkaline. I had watched the truth about cancer and lots of you tube videos and was under the impression cancer was “easy” to cure! Some videos were making suggestions it could be healed in 2 weeks if your diet was alkaline and sugar free! After 6 weeks nothing had changed so these claims are completely untrue, I suppose what works for some doesn’t work for others, but I can confirm on research that no one has cured cancer in 2 weeks! some people have difficulty curing a cold in that length of time! That video and claim that has done the rounds on Facebook really insults people with cancer who have been fighting for years and are trying everything and anything to cure themselves. Chemotherapy also works for some people too. In conclusion, cancer is an individual journey and some people find a “miracle cure” and some don’t. We are all individuals and heal in our own time.

After 4 months my tumour markers went down a little, so I carried on with the vegan diet but let go of a lot of the strict dieting because it was getting me down! I found that with my cancer being oestrogen positive and her2 positive that information was contradicting and I became scared to eat anything!!! My weight had dramatically dropped and I was starting to look unhealthy! I brought wheat back into my diet. Im not sure if this was a good thing as wheat has oestrogen and after a further four months I received the worst news! My tumour markers had shot up dramatically and the cancer was now stage 4 and in my lymph and bones! I decided to take the conventional route and have medical treatment.

So now after two weeks of panic attacks and depression, Im setting a new task. I had dipped in and out of positive affirmations whilst choosing the alternative route so now Im taking it on 100%. Ive set out a protocol for re-training my mind to health and wellbeing whilst letting go and forgiving my past, I am setting my mind on a healthy and happy future. This will work alongside my medical treatment and my organic vegetarian diet with supplements which includes raw garlic, lots of ginger and lemons, iodine, 3,000mg vit C and 3,000 of vit D and turmeric daily. Im staying away from wheat and sugar but I will eat limited organic dairy products, from goats rather than cows. Im going to try and raise money to have mistletoe therapy and vitamin c infusions to power up my immune system, a strong immune system is the key to beating cancer. I also take Astragulus which is a herb that boosts white blood cells.

Today I am starting my mind protocol, scientists say if you continually train your mind daily to do something after 21 days it becomes reality and part of your life, or a habit can be formed.

Mind Works protocol

Every morning I will listen to a healing meditation followed by the “I am” mantra which for me will be “I am perfectly healthy” “I am ultimate health” “I am in remission” “I am healing” etc I will repeat this out loud for 30 minutes every morning. After a fruit smoothie with wheatgrass and spirulina I will do mirror work for 30 minutes again repeating “I am perfectly healthy” “Life loves me” etc. Then more affirmations as I exercise to activate my meridian lines and align my hara line. I will then go for a walking meditation for an hour. This will take up 3 hours of my morning but Im on a mission!!!!

In the day I will use the mantra nam myoho renge ko which is a Buddhist mantra to bring in divine blessings. I will also use TFT techniques.

My nightly mind routine will be; mirror work, kundalini meditation, I am mantra, healing meditation

I will post my daily experiences! Lets see if this mind reprogramming really works! I remember giving a TEDX talk on the power of the mind so now its time to turn theory into reality. I am giving it my all. The Mind project starts here.