Who are you?

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You have over 50 trillion cells in your body, ever multiplying and dying and creating new cells, ever transforming.

Every cell has a consciousness

Your cells work day and night to keep you alive. Your cells react to your heart beat, brain wave messages and emotions such as fear, stress, anxiety, happiness, joy and love. You constantly send signals to your cells with every thought and every heart beat.

You have the magic of life within you

Life cannot be explained by science or religion, life is a phenomenal force of energy that exists within everything. Even stones are made up of tiny crystals that have grown from nature’s life force.

Physicists say we are made of 40% stardust

NASA tells us that that the abundance of elements in our body creates the building blocks of life and is also found in the stars of the Milky Way.

You are part of the universe and the universe is part of you.

When you look at an atom and its electrons and protons circulating around the nucleus in the centre, it looks like our milky way with the planets and stars circulating around the sun.

You really are so much more than you think!

Loving who you are is to love your physical body and respect the life-force that is within you. We have a universe inside of us that is made of 7 billion billion billion atoms. Scientists say we have more atoms in our bodies than there are stars in the observational universe (one billion trillion) our atoms are constantly moving and changing form, constantly healing us and helping us function with no help from our conscious mind. We are not only connected to our inner universe we are connected to this large expansive outer universe that creates life, ever changing and transforming. Life is truly miraculous in how it all works; every part of our body is a living miracle! But the thing that is truly magical is that when you heal and love your inner world it starts to reflect in your outer world too.

Loving your body always starts with your breath, breathing deeply and peacefully, deep breaths send signals to your body that everything is ok, everything is good. When your breathing is shallow, your heart is affected and this has a knock on effect to the whole of your body, shallow breathing can create panic, stress, worry and anxiety. Fear and anger in the heart will send signals to your body of threat and alarm. Re-connecting to your body helps you re-member who you truly are.

How do we forget who we truly are?

Sometimes we keep playing the same movie over and over again and our reactions are the same as when we were children, it’s like a soldier still fighting when the war has stopped. We react to situations from our past, thinking the outcome will be the same but we are not seeing it as the truth or living in the now. We may have been told that we were a certain character, but this would have just been a judgement from another person, so if we take it on board as a truth it becomes us, but in truth it isn’t us.

Core beliefs are not easy to identify and they only surface in difficult situations or in meditation when the conscious mind is no longer in control. When our conscious mind becomes quiet we can then discover what’s really going on within us. This is important because our subconscious mind governs our life, this is the place where we hold onto beliefs and perceptions that may have come from old wounds, or from other people’s beliefs that we have taken on board.

We can also lose ourselves trying to fit in, so we become a person that we think other people will like, or we may try to be like another person. But we are all individual and our individuality determines who we are .A rose does not look at a sunflower and say I wish I was a sunflower. A rose is a rose and each rose is individual and when we observe this flower we can see the beauty in each of them and further more each individual petal of a rose. The same applies to each of us; we are all unique and have unique talents that only we can put into the world. The secret to happiness and fulfilment is to just be who we are.

So our mind and nervous system works to protect us and it does so in many ways. We all have different defence systems, some people have to be right because they feel if they are wrong it will make them a bad person, so they have to make sure everything is right and then they feel they are good and safe. Some people escape, if conflict faces them they walk away and if too much stress comes into their life they will escape into watching TV or playing games, or drinking etc Some people have to play the victim and the poor me card, this is the only way they feel they will get love or attention. Some people push others away if they get too close. There are many different defence characteristics that can be defined both psychologically and energetically and these defence systems have a knock on effect to our physical and mental wellbeing.

So the best place to be on all levels of your being is a heart centred place with a balanced mind set, where thoughts are in the now and connected to nature and all that is. This is the perfect place, and some people experience that daily and others have never experienced it. Psychologically and energetically this heart centred place is within us every minute of every day, it’s who we are, it’s the place where we find our individual truth. Most of us waver from feeling good to feeling bad every day and most of us let outside influences deter how we feel and we unknowingly play the blame game and victim role. This is a level of consciousness that we can heal and then go on to master a higher level of consciousness. This higher level has been reached by many philosophers, business people, billionaires, holy figures, authors, teachers and the list goes on. This higher consciousness has been reached by millions of people and each one of them has inspired others through their individual teachings or writings. Some people just live in this consciousness and enjoy life and everything it has to offer! I am sure there are many of you reading this that have experienced this higher consciousness and can live it 50- 60% of the time. I probably would define myself as one of those people. If you too are one of those people then you will know that meditation and inner work has to become a daily practice and the rewards for this daily practice are miraculous. If you have experienced miracles and universal love then you are probably experiencing moments of complete joy, wonderment, tranquillity, inner peace and contentment. It’s a great place to be in and truly magical.

Dr Michael Beckwith teaches life visioning and talks about 4 levels of consciousness; Level 1 – victim, blame and gossip consciousness

Level 2 – Manifest consciousness

Level 3 – Channelling individual essence

Level 4 – I am and being consciousness.

He says that in each part of our lives we can be at different levels of consciousness. So for example spiritually you may be at level 4 but in relationships you may be at level one. Or you may experience oneness in relationships but with money you are still at level one. This really resonates with me and I can identify each of these levels to different parts of my own life.

What I have discovered recently is that bringing your thoughts back into the now and bringing your energy fully into your body and loving every part of you has a tremendous healing effect. I used to teach and write self development books, but I was missing something and that something was to love me and bring energy into me and connect to my inner wisdom.  It’s in the being and the doing of self love, inner work and living in the now that really transforms your life. The true and vital key is to know that you are part of the universe and the universe is part of you and the vibration of love creates a field of miracles and good living.

Try this exercise to momentarily feel that higher consciousness and to feel your true individual essence. It will take just 5 minutes. Notice how your ego mind will fight with you as you start to relax, it will tell you, you haven’t got time, it will tell you you’ve got too much to do, and it will tell you that it’s not worth it. There are many books written by some great philosophers who talk about re-training the mind and taking control of it. If we let the ego thoughts control us we will not be able to access the higher consciousness. It’s something that has to be worked on daily and the rewards are good. We have to learn how to quiet the ego mind. The ego mind likes to tell us that we are not good enough, or we are too good for this etc this is how we recognise the ego, it will always measure you against everyone else. Whereas the higher mind recognises you as an individual and no one is better or worse than you.

So try this exercise and observe your ego as you start to connect to your higher mind, your ego may even try to cut corners.  Listen and observe your thoughts but don’t let them control you. Just quiet the mind.

  1. Slow the breath and inhale all the way in and exhale all the way out. Do this 10 times, close your eyes. Feel that inner peace. Stay focused and be aware of what your mind says, try to quiet the thoughts and just relax into peace.
  2. Now concentrate on your heart and visualise light pouring into your heat as you breathe in. Do another 10 breaths. You may start to feel warm or a tingling, your hands may get hot. This is chi energy starting to flow through you.
  3. Now just say higher consciousnesses connect with me now and take 10 more deep breaths and observe your feelings and thoughts. Really feel the peace and softness in each breath. In this state it is good to ask questions about your life because it has no ego or emotional drama attached to it.


Now if you didn’t experience anything try the exercise again, starting from number 1. You will feel more at peace with yourself and the world after just the first three steps. If you felt tired, like you needed to sleep, it’s a sign that you need to sleep and rest more, we often stay awake because of addictions or got to dos but our bodies and brain need to rest and recuperate. If you really feel you connected to something then go on to the next steps.

  1. Take 10 more deep and peaceful breaths and really feel that peace and connection within you. Picture the highest vision for your life, think about things you would love to do and feel it in your body.
  2. Now be aware of any feelings attached to this vision. What do you feel and where do you feel it? If it’s a good feeling expand the feeling, if it’s bad, explore where this bad feeling is coming from.
  3. Now open your eyes bring your energy down into your feet, and just sit for a while, have a glass of water. Connect to that vision before you go to sleep every night.

Please let me know what you experience.

So I will finish where I started to complete the circle of transformation.

You have over 50 trillion cells in your body, forever multiplying and dying and creating new cells.

Every cell has a consciousness

You have the magic of life within you

Physicists say we are made of 40% stardust

You are part of the universe

You are so much more than you think!

Love You! Really Love You! There’s no one else like you!

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The Phoenix



The phoenix

All hope is gone and you feel empty and numb

The darkness enfolds you, what will you become?

All is lost and you can see no way out

The ashes lay lifeless and you question what life is about


The phoenix turns ashes into fire

Something inside awakens and begins to transpire

There is a light within us that wants to rise

Something so powerful, it will reach for the skies


The phoenix exists within us all

The power of the phoenix gives us strength to stand tall

When you find the light and fire within

You will find your truth and then your life will truly begin

Vanessa Carter 1st March 2016


Awakening to who you are

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Its time to listen to your body!

In my twenties I became very spiritual. I meditated and I healed others, it seemed natural and easy. I became a Reiki Master and I studied the human energy field. I thought I knew everything! I constantly got thank you letters from people telling me I had changed their lives, I felt wise and knowledgeable.  BUT I couldn’t understand why my day to day life wasn’t operating very well. I earned very little money, my relationships were awful and most of the time abusive. Things went from bad to worse in my personal life and I lost who I was.

Last year I went on an amazing journey of self discovery and healing when I was diagnosed with cancer. I was on a mission to heal myself on every level. So I would like to briefly share my healing journey with you and the reason why I’m sharing it is because I hope it will influence your perceptions and  your life in a positive way. How can we beat cancer? By preventing it! And hopefully my journey will help prevent this from happening to more people. If one person takes this message on board and transforms their life then I will be happy and it will be mission accomplished. I hope that person is you.

Firstly I have discovered that there is an energy that is unexplainable that is filled with love and supports you; most of us call this energy God or universal energy. Whatever you choose to name it, I know for sure is it exists. I came face to face with this energy whilst on my cancer journey. It happened about two weeks after the initial shock and screaming out why why why?  Why me? How could this be happening to ME!?!. I walked my dog and suddenly I could see all the colours around me, I could see the beauty within everything. The only thought that entered my head was “life is so beautiful and miraculous” So there I was not knowing if I was going to live or die but what I knew for sure was that I wanted to LIVE! This world and my life is awesome! And it was only a few months ago when I was complaining about my life and how rubbish it was! Oh if only I could go back in time and be cancer free and live that life again knowing what I know now. What a blessing it would be to be cancer free!

Many people have an awakening in a time of shock. Neal Donald Walsch was homeless, divorced and had lost his job when he shouted out “Why” to God and then started writing a book with the answer to that very question! Ekhart Toll was in deep depression when he had an enlightening moment, Byron Katie was lying on the floor after years of alcoholism and depression when she awakened, and the list goes on. It seems at a moment of trauma an awakening happens. Why?  It is the only time when we switch our mind off. We get to a place where worry and thoughts are no longer important and it usually happens in a near to death situation. During the darkest times is when an awakening happens, our thoughts are no longer drowning out our true selves and we can finally hear our souls calling and see the truth.

So miracles started to happen one by one as I opened up to life and its unfolding beauty. Books were appearing and falling off the shelves for me to read and there was life changing synchronicities. My world started to expand and I started travelling to new places and meeting new people. One of the people who turned up in my life was a qi gong master who taught me to breathe, really breathe and bring my energy back into me. This was an amazing pinnacle in my life! I realised how I didn’t love myself. I started to send loving energy to every organ of my body and bring my energy fully back “home” back into my body, not scattered around, not in stressful situations, or in emotional dramas. My energy was peacefully and fully resting within my body and it felt powerful and uplifting! I felt like my energy was huge! I realised how my body had been trying to communicate with me for years but I refused to listen. I had a few accidents in the run up to my diagnosis, I fell down the stairs and broke my nose and twisted my neck and landed on my right arm which I couldn’t use for a week, a couple of months before I had fell over at work and sprained my right arm; I couldn’t understand why I kept hurting my right arm. Now I know it was my body calling out for help, calling out for attention and love because I was neglecting it. If someone was tapping you on the shoulder would you take a pain killer to stop the pain? Would you have your arm removed? No! You would ask why the person is tapping you on the shoulder. The same happens when you have a pain, your body is trying to talk to you. For example if you are in a stressful job and you are constantly on the go and in hyper mode, your body will say “stop you need to rest” so you may get palpitations, pains in the chest, anxiety or pains in the back of the neck and shoulders. This is your body saying please stop and give me some love.

So when you start to send different parts of your body love, you realise that you are the creator of your inner universe and how you feel inwardly will also reflect in your outside world. If you feel worthless or insecure you will attract people and situations to confirm this. Also when you start to send love to different parts of your body it’s good to be consciously aware of how you feel about these parts. Sometimes women send hate, disgust or negative energy to certain parts of their body, like breasts, thighs, bottom, legs, face etc. This is felt by your body and this is how disease starts.

So Remember and tell yourself every day YOU ARE A MIRACLE.  YOU ARE ALIVE.  LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. You have the beauty of life all around you. YOU ARE 100% BEAUTIFUL you are a blessing from the universe and it made you perfectly. Also as you start to love yourself more, the universe loves you more and other people love you more too. You will find that old energy and friends disappear from your life and new positive friends start being attracted to you.

When you start to bring your energy back to your body and loving your body and realise you are unique and a divine expression of the universe and that you have a unique purpose in this life, that’s when higher emotions transform the lower emotions.

At last I get it! You really don’t have to try too hard in life because everything is a reflection of how you feel about yourself and you are the creator of your life. It goes like this …. A mindset attached to an emotion and then onto action becomes creation. So a negative thought attached to an emotion becomes a reaction, the reaction will have a ripple effect and create a field of negativity.  A positive thought with a positive emotion, followed through with action creates something wonderful. It’s your choice what you think and feel and create. In quantum physics we learn two things can be in the same place and exist at the same time. There are many parts of you and it’s your choice which parts you awaken.

Always remember what a miracle you are. You are made up of trillions upon trillions of atoms and they all respond to their creator and work for their creator which is you. It’s all within you! And big changes happen when you start loving and listening to your body.